Ƹ̴Ӂ̴Ʒ AmaZiNg GrAcE…Ƹ̴Ӂ̴Ʒ

Who gave Yourself to the death of the Cross to save sinners,
look upon me, most lustful of all sinners…

…and I did love him with every inch of my flesh
burning with his fingertips and the sound of his voice
My body upon his made me feel angelic and his kisses;
so seductive upon my neck to my lustful lips
it started so easy as he held me tight against his frame
but as the candle dimmed his breath hastened as he touched me
my eyes shut tight with the biting of my lip
tasting blood as he kissed his way above my heart
the paleness of my ample breasts stained pinkish blush
his tongue surrounding the stone buds as I whimpered softly
hands all around my curves as if sculpting the glass of wine
the scent of the vineyard arousing his cravings as the kisses dwelled
down the slope of my midriff to a decadent yet mysterious valley
candy raindrops softly reflecting off the folds as he explored
taking into him that which I hold sacred and cherished
and oh God did he touch with such respect of the temple
finding the gem that lies hidden within it’s fortress
thighs shudder in a wake of tide overcoming me
drowning me within the fantasy and reality I know I imagined
Praying to the Lord to let me die in such overwhelming pleasure
pinned to a sheeted cross he crucified me
I called out as Jesus did with a low groan and breathy moan
my legs nailed beneath his own as the adrenaline rushed my head
feverish bliss of defiled innocence and blasphemous eroticism
His soul embedded within mine as the height of the spasms climaxed
soaked within the holy waters of my own garden of eden
as Adam ate from the fruit of the punished so did he
His rib not within my cage but caging me within his greedy yearning
and he carried my seductive form from his bedded prison
body aligned in perfection with my own weary form
heartbeats as one as we drifted within my hazed confessional
praying for our sins as we again stain the sanctity of love

Bless me father for I have sinned
but let me burn within my lust for I crave him…

DrEaMs ArE sOmEtiMeS eLuSiVe…BuT WhEn YoU BeLieVe aNd FigHt FoR a cErTaiN DreaM, iT wiLL bE yOuRs…yOu’LL sEE…

NuRsEs aRe sO iN dEmaNd aBroaD yEt oFtEn nEgLeCtEd iN tHeiR oWn HoMeLaNd…
I’m NoT bEiNg sArCaStiC But iT’s TrUe…
i…FoR oNe, HaD eXpEriEnCed iT…
In LiFe, wE cAn’T HaVe eVeRyThiNg…BuT wHeN CouRaGe iS cOupLeD wiTh DeTeRmiNaTiOn, eVeRyThiNg wiLL Be pOssibLe…
afTeR tHe eNdLeSs sTrUggLeS iN sChooL tO pAss tHe CoUrSe, tHe pRePaRaTiOn FoR ThE LoCaL BoArD eXaMs LeaVe uS aLL pOwErLeSs…wHy? Hu CuD aCtUaLLy pReDiCt  wHaT  QuEsTiOnS wUd sUrFaCe…iT wAs LiKe LooKiNg FoR a NeedLe oN a HaYsTacK…eNdLeSs sLeepLeSs NigHts, LoNg HoUrS oF BoRiNg rEviEw cLaSseS, iNtiMiDaTiNg “aNdRoiD” cLaSSmaTeS, FaMiLy aNd sChOoL pReSsUrE…tiReLeSs HuMaNs bOmBaRdEd wiTh LoTs oF nEw cOnCePtS eVeN aT ThE eVe oF ThE aCtUaL eXaM…
wOw! We eiThEr FiGHt oR fLiGht, aNd i oPtEd tO fAce tHiS oNe LaSt tEsT oF cOuRaGe…HeCk…tHe wHoLe PhiLiPPiNeS wiLL knOw iF i fLaNkeD Or NoT bEcaUsE tHe reSuLtS wiLL bE reLeaSeD oN a bRoAdSheeT…iT’s An aDDeD pReSSuRe  bEiNg a sEcOnD cOurSeR bEcAuSe eXpEcTaTiOnS wUd Be GreAtEr…aNd ThaT’s tHe GrEaTeSt HeiSt…sO, eVeN iF iT mAkEs mE fEeL sO dUmB, aT tHe LaSt fEw rEmaiNiNg hOuRs…i cRaMmEd fOr mOrE kNowLeDge, tHe GooD tHiNg iS…iT acTuaLLy wOrKeD! sO, eQuiPpEd wiTh eNoUgH wiSdOm, i FoUgHt tiLL tHe eNd, iNsPiTe oF tHe ePiStAxiS i eXpEriEnCeD oN tHaT 2 fAtEfuL DaYs oF mY LiFe…
i SuRviVeD…aNd ThEn cOmEs tHe eNdLeSs wAiTiNg fOr tHe ReSuLtS…
i eXpEcTeD fOr tHe wOrSt yEt sTiLL HoPeD fOr tHe BeSt…aNd GOD iS gOoD, HE gAvE mE tHe cHaNcE tO pAsS a cRuciaL eXaM tHe sEcOnD tiMe aRoUnD…
He HeLpEd Me bEcAuSe He kNeW i HeLpEd mYseLf, tHaT i’Ve DoNe My PaRt…aNd aS tHe sAyiNg gOeS…Do Ur BeSt aNd GoD wiLL dO tHe ReSt…iNdEeD, iT wAs a sWeeT viCtOrY, nO aMoUnT oF MoNeY iN tHiS wOrLd cUd BuY tHe HaPPiNeSs We aLL fElt wHeN wE paSseD tHe BoArD eXaMs TAKE 1…iT WaS tHe SweeTeSt viCtOrY eVeR…
aFtEr ThE oAtHtAkiNg…WoW, tHiS iS wHeRe tHe aCtuaL pRoBleM bEgAn…aLL pRiVaTe hOsPiTaLs (hErE iN PaMpaNga) dEcLaReD a fReeZe hiRiNg sTaTus. DiStRiCt HoSpiTaLs aRe LoaDeD wiTh VoLuNtEeRs…VoLuNtEeR nA mU piN LuLuBaN Mi, KaSaKiT pAng miLuB, uNleSs u HaVe a ‘BaCkEr’…
MaYbE LiFe iS reaLLy UnFaiR sOmEtiMes…My eGo wAs bRuiSed, bAttErEd dUe To cOnsTaNt rEjEcTiOns, wHeN aLL i WaNtEd aLL aLoNg iS tO sTaY hErE iN mY pRoViNcE tHat i LoVe sO mUcH…rEnDeR mY nUrSiNg pRoWeSs tO mY cO-KaPamPaNgaNs aNd mOsT iMpoRtaNtLy, sTaY wHeRe My FaMily iS…
i WaiTeD aNd WaiTeD, bUt mY tiMe wAs oNly WaStEd…4 LoNg mOnThS oF wAiTiNg…i GaVe Up…i CaN No LoNgEr pRoLoNg My aGoNy…i HaD tO wOrK, tO cOmPleTe mY U.S eMpLoYeRs’ rEquiReMeNt, bUt mOrE tHaN tHat, i cAnNoT cOnsiDeR mYseLf a FuLL-pLeDge NuRsE unLeSs i pUt iT iN pRaCtiCe…i SeeKeD fOr sOmeThiNg eLsE…sOmEwHeRe eLsE…wHeRe i WuD bE aCcepTeD fOr wHo aNd wHaT i aM…aNd GoD neVeR LeAvE Me eMpTy…i’M NoW a sTaFf nUrSe iN oNe oF ThE maNy pResTiGioUs hOsPiTaLs iN maNiLa…

wiTh tHe HeLp oF a FeW fRiEnDs, i MaDe iT…aNd iT hEaLeD mY sHaTTeRed pRiDe So aMaZiNgLy…
yEt, i CaN FaCe ThE wOrLd aNd sAy, i MaDe iT bEcaUsE i gAvE mY bEst!!! ThE VeRy BeSt i EvEr HaD…
2 BoUts oF qUaLiFyiNg ExaMs…3 BoUtS oF NeRvE-RaCkiNg iNtErviEwS…tOnS oF ReQuiReMeNtS…wHEw! i’Ve CoMe ThiS fAr…
jUsT a LiTTle SacRiFiCe aNd eVeRyThiNg wiLL bE aLL riGhT…aNd FrOm wHoM muCh HaS bEeN TaKeN, mUcH wiLL bE giVeN…WELCOME R.N!!! =)